Posts Tagged: inspired by strangers

more people watching people, and me

I arrive at my usual spot on the subway platform at Union Station this morning at the same time as a woman and man who are having a good natured argument about where along the platform they should board.  She wins. 

We get on the car and she sits in the one available seat near me and he stands in front of her.  I don’t really notice them again until a few stops later when I see her stroking the top of his hand which is holding on to the rail beside him, and she’s looking up at him, issuing a private communiqué by way of a smile that is content and adoring.  It must have also said “bye honey, have a good day” because without a word he then moves across the car to the door and waits there, looking out, until we arrive at Dundas Station. 

She has gone back to her Metro Times, but as the train screeches into the station, she looks up to watch him walk off the train.  As he moves amongst the people on the platform, she leans around other passengers to keep him in her sight, as if wanting to capture him in his aloneness; that bit of time – not hers – when he has separated from their coupledom and morphed into an autonomous worker walking about the city with thousands of others on a Monday morning.  It’s like she’s keen to see him outside of her, from a different perspective, perhaps imagining him a stranger. 

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It’s an interminable ride.  A rainy day slows down commuting everywhere.  Don’t ask me why the subway slows down too; it’s as if the underground is in symphony with the city's surface.  Like they're locked in a dance, the subway keeping time with its partner in the world above it.

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A few stops from the end of my ride, I look up from my book, feeling mildly annoyed, sensing I’d been on that train far too long.  I notice a lady a little way down from me writing in a notebook.  She looks to be in her early forties, with a long, groovy(ish) green skirt, taupe hose, navy walking shoes and a small square of lace pinned to the top of her head. 

I always notice fellow writers with interest, wondering what sort of writing is going on.  Is she journaling?  Has she come to a fabulous kernel of an idea sitting there?  What kind of story is unfolding in her mind?  Is it fiction?  Poetry?  Memoir?   Is she taking a writing class, perhaps like the ones I teach?  Or maybe she's a reporter for a small community paper… 

But then I notice she’s writing about me.  Or seems to be anyway, as she keeps looking up at me then back down at her notebook to add further scribbles.  Maybe I’m just her visual touch point, where her eyes wander to as she pauses to think.  But I’m not in her obvious line of sight, and when she catches me watching her watching me, she diverts her eyes to the panel of ads above my head for a moment, then glazing over me again before getting on with her writing. 

I’m mildly amused at the possibility that the tables have been turned on me, and I wonder what it is this writer finds in me to write about.  It has never occurred to me that my public demeanour might be the least bit interesting, but then I imagine the people I find profoundly interesting wouldn’t see themselves as interesting either, like that husband and wife I’d seen earlier going about, what was to them, a routine morning commute.

If she was reading something in my face, I hope it wasn’t tragedy.  I’d hate that.