in which a cloud passes through

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There's been a conversation over at Selma's about  her need to, and her method of, surrendering to the divine.  It got me thinking about times when I decided I needed to surrender over to what I call the universe.  I associate the experience with "the universe," as I said to her, because I can experience it most significantly by way of subtle movement, a tipping of the flow somehow; its rhythms nudging me along in an uncharted course.

Funny thing is, like Selma, I've been enduring restless nights of crazy dreaming.  Rodents have intruded into my sleep world; disfigured, injured ones.  I'm waking up exhausted and jumpy and with a sense of gloom and foreboding that I can't seem to shake these recent weeks.

So I'm thinking about that conversation and my recent state during yoga today; and when I'm asked to focus on an intention for today's practice, it seems right to let go of the nighttime  (and daytime) intruders on my peace.  I decide to accept and work with the rhythms of the universe – in that studio and beyond; to ride the waves in a direction that is, perhaps, different that that I'd envisioned as "right."

As it turns out, it's the best yoga experience I've had in a long time.  I focus.  My body breathes into itself, and holds still and strong in the poses.  I balance.   Balance is something I've not found in that studio all summer.

I'm thinking about all that when that cloud passes across my window this evening.  I watch it drift ever slowly east, inviting me to float along with it.  If I dare.   

I don't know how I will sleep tonight, but things are looking up.  Or EVEN anyway.  Kind of like the world is rolling along, and I might as well jump on and just sit back and breathe.

10 Comments

  1. Reply
    Selma August 9, 2012

    Clouds are significant to me too. Not only do they provide a point of focus, but I view them as a sign of things returning to an even flow. How can there not be an even flow with all that drifting? Surrendering in whatever form it takes seems to subtly change things. For the better. That you can also feel this shift in movement makes me realise we are all much more closely linked than I realised. Thank you for this observation, Jen. It has made things much clearer. And better. xxx

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    Lisa Golden August 9, 2012

    The clouds seem to be especially varied lately. Towering, puffy and white, low hanging drifts of cotton batting. Yesterday as I drove home, there were two banks of clouds – one in the east the other in the west. Both were situated just so that I could see the sheets of rain coming down from them.

  3. Reply
    Sian August 10, 2012

    wise words,
    I’ve just spent a blissful couple of hours cloudwatching – so relaxing : )

  4. Reply
    Eoin August 10, 2012

    Go West!!!!

  5. Reply
    Steve capelin August 12, 2012

    Watching the world mindfully.

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    Jennifer August 13, 2012

    Lately there have been such magnificent formations, it’s like they’re demanding attention! So glad you identified my friend. xo

  7. Reply
    Jennifer August 13, 2012

    Here too! I wonder if that’s one of the subtle indications that the season is changing… hate the thought of that – but then that means I’m not accepting the flow… 🙂

  8. Reply
    Jennifer August 13, 2012

    Sounds wonderful!

  9. Reply
    Jennifer August 13, 2012

    Always glad to see your cheeky self E.

  10. Reply
    Jennifer August 13, 2012

    Yes. Always a worthy endeavour.

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